In case I didn't mention it....I am adopted. I support adoption...I support the kids who need the homes. And yes, I support out-of-country adoptions. I was adopted from within our nations borders; and for years, it broke my heart when people choose to leave the country. But gradually I am beginning to understand, God has a different path for each and every child(and in country isn't cheap either, but neither is out of country). Some of us have homes across the street, in the next county, in the next country, or maybe across the nearest ocean. So, to all the adoptees and their families, GOOD FOR YOU!!!! And congratulations, you just did the biggest thing that can impact the earth....you have chosen to change a child's life. Congratulations, welcome to the journey.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
Strange Events...
As you may have guessed...I am borrowing a computer for the weekend. And trust me, this post will be brief. Probably because I am so frustrated I want to scream.
Remember that private Christian college where I was attending to get my BSN, well due to an issue with ONE course, I have been denied acceptance into their nursing school, for a mere 5 YEARS. I am appealing the process so pray for me. Pray hard.
I am not totally in a bad place, I did get accepted to a community college, which all though it is MUCH cheaper, I can only get an ASN through them, and then would have to go somewhere else to get my BSN, and then probably somewhere else to get my Masters. It would be a 9 or 10 year journey(I would be like roughly 36 before I got there), versus a journey of roughly 6 or 7 years...8 at the most. I hope you grasp my frustration.
In the middle of my vent fest, my husband piped up quietly beside me. He said "God didn't open all the doors He opened, get you the jobs you got, get you in "your" school that you shouldn't have gotten into(I applied 2 months after the deadline), and continually worked out everything if He didn't have an ultimate purpose in mind. Maybe He wants you to go through the appeals process to prove to Him that this is what your heart really desires. Or maybe He is wanting to see if you are going to praise him no matter what. Or maybe He wants to see how hard your desire to attain the dreams HE gave you is. You never know what He is doing...remember, His ways aren't ours." I was sitting there not wanting to hear that, but I knew I needed to. I knew he was simply speaking to me what God was laying on his heart, and that as usual, he is my calming voice of reason.
So, we are waiting. Patiently, him more than me, but I am getting there.
Remember that private Christian college where I was attending to get my BSN, well due to an issue with ONE course, I have been denied acceptance into their nursing school, for a mere 5 YEARS. I am appealing the process so pray for me. Pray hard.
I am not totally in a bad place, I did get accepted to a community college, which all though it is MUCH cheaper, I can only get an ASN through them, and then would have to go somewhere else to get my BSN, and then probably somewhere else to get my Masters. It would be a 9 or 10 year journey(I would be like roughly 36 before I got there), versus a journey of roughly 6 or 7 years...8 at the most. I hope you grasp my frustration.
In the middle of my vent fest, my husband piped up quietly beside me. He said "God didn't open all the doors He opened, get you the jobs you got, get you in "your" school that you shouldn't have gotten into(I applied 2 months after the deadline), and continually worked out everything if He didn't have an ultimate purpose in mind. Maybe He wants you to go through the appeals process to prove to Him that this is what your heart really desires. Or maybe He is wanting to see if you are going to praise him no matter what. Or maybe He wants to see how hard your desire to attain the dreams HE gave you is. You never know what He is doing...remember, His ways aren't ours." I was sitting there not wanting to hear that, but I knew I needed to. I knew he was simply speaking to me what God was laying on his heart, and that as usual, he is my calming voice of reason.
So, we are waiting. Patiently, him more than me, but I am getting there.
Changes In The Air....
There are changes in the air...exciting changes, scary changes, costly changes. I got accepted into my college of choice. Now, as exciting as it is, I am very overwhelmed.
Keep in mind the community college I attended before our move cost approximately $18,586 a year. That works out to a little more than $9,293 a semester. The new private Christian college I am starting in the fall, $36,348 a year. That is a grand total of...(insert drum roll please) $18,174 a semester. My Pell grant and financial aid comes to a grand total of $17, 500 A YEAR. As you can see, there is a slight discrepancy in those numbers. My stress level on realizing the breadth of the discrepancy...was astronomical. I almost, ALMOST cried.
I chose instead to sit down and ask God if He knew what He was doing. I heard Him laugh(in my head of course) and remind me that he is in control. So please, please pray for my/our financial needs.
There are all kinds of grants, loans, etc. I can apply for, but I am still very worried. Besides the tuition and fees thing, I am also still waiting on acceptance into the nursing program...pray hard people, God is going to have to do mega string pulling for this to happen. I know God is in control, but it is still a frightening/exciting change.
On a whole other note, I had to explain the whole "blog" thing to my husband this morning. I showed him one of my favorites, Life With A Family, to explain. He was impressed, and actually sat and read over my shoulder for quite some time....who knows, maybe I will get a co-blogger yet!!
Keep in mind the community college I attended before our move cost approximately $18,586 a year. That works out to a little more than $9,293 a semester. The new private Christian college I am starting in the fall, $36,348 a year. That is a grand total of...(insert drum roll please) $18,174 a semester. My Pell grant and financial aid comes to a grand total of $17, 500 A YEAR. As you can see, there is a slight discrepancy in those numbers. My stress level on realizing the breadth of the discrepancy...was astronomical. I almost, ALMOST cried.
I chose instead to sit down and ask God if He knew what He was doing. I heard Him laugh(in my head of course) and remind me that he is in control. So please, please pray for my/our financial needs.
There are all kinds of grants, loans, etc. I can apply for, but I am still very worried. Besides the tuition and fees thing, I am also still waiting on acceptance into the nursing program...pray hard people, God is going to have to do mega string pulling for this to happen. I know God is in control, but it is still a frightening/exciting change.
On a whole other note, I had to explain the whole "blog" thing to my husband this morning. I showed him one of my favorites, Life With A Family, to explain. He was impressed, and actually sat and read over my shoulder for quite some time....who knows, maybe I will get a co-blogger yet!!
Friday, June 3, 2011
Issues In Computer Land....
You will have to excuse my extended absence. My computer "died" on me about two weeks ago, and until I have been working for a while we simply don't have the money to fix it. I don't have much time(I am borrowing a friends computer) but I wanted to ask for prayer. I am pretty sure no one reads this, but that is okay. God knows my heart and putting my words on "paper" helps me feel a little better. We need prayer. We are looking for a new church, so please keep us lifted up. I appreciate it, we appreciate it. Blessings to your day....
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