Monday, November 21, 2011

Time....

So....I am back among the living.  For like a day. Or two.  I have no classes this week...truly a miracle.  I do have to work Black Friday though....uuuugggghhhhh.  So not looking forward to that.  I do not have to work Thanksgiving though so my parents are coming to spend the day with us before I go to bed for an early night(I have to be at work....at MIDNIGHT....AGAIN).  Only 5 more weeks then a normal Monday to Friday schedule.  I cannot wait.  Be prepared for some rambling to follow, and I apologize for the rambling...

I will attempt to catch everyone up(all 4 of you, thank-you for your participation).  I got a new job in September.  I currently am working for Meijer, it isn't great, but it is better than the Hobby Lobby I was at here.  I got put into leadership training two weeks later.  I got promoted a week after that.  I got a raise...roughly two weeks ago.  I have been busy, but busy is good.  Keeps me focused.

I canceled my Facebook account.  Well, I deactivated it.  I can always log right back on if I need to.  Which I have only done once in the last 3 weeks.  I was proud of myself.  Still am.  I figure if all people are doing is gossiping, causing drama, and not being very Christ-like, do I really need to be part of it.  I mean, if it is dragging me down and taking my time up when I should be studying do I really need it?  No, apparently not.  The world hasn't stopped, and I feel just fine without it.  I do miss a few people, but they know how to get in touch with me if they have the time to catch up.  And I know not everyone uses Facebook for gossiping and causing trouble, but I was tired of receiving nasty emails and people not being very nice about things that were none of their business.

We started the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace University.  It has been....exhilarating....exhausting....daunting...and even a tad bit fun.  But it has been very eye-opening.  There are some really surprising things we have learned.  We knew we could save up money and buy the things we wanted, but to have someone reiterate it and give us tools we need to do that has been very nice.  I made the comment to my husband tonight that I wish we could go to France.  He replied..."we can.  We can just buy a canoe and row for the next 26 years", I mean it is a thought, but no.  Not really to interested.  Did make me laugh though....have not been able to laugh easily for awhile. 

The not laughing part is due to some issues with part of my biological family.  I am not willing to change my values and the things my upbringing taught me to make people happy.  There are certain things I find incredibly disrespectful, and being asked to accept them and let them be part of my life is hard for me.  Especially when they go directly against my morals and my faith.  I do not make exceptions on some things.  It was hard.  It is still hard.  I do not think it will get better any time soon.  And honestly, I am okay with it the way it is for now.  I do believe God will work it out if it is meant to work out.  Honestly though, having the relationship out of my life is what is best for my focus.  My husband, school, my faith and my Savior, and my parents, brother and sis-in-law and those two sweet :-) kids are the most important things in my world.  If someone is asking me to put them behind something else...I have issues with that.  And school....that takes way more of my focus than I like.  But God is able.  He can give me the strength and focus that I need.

On anther note, we went to our first MDA Seminar on Saturday.  It was a caregiver seminar.  Apparently November is National Caregiver Month.  And National Adoption Month.  Happy Caregiver and Adoption Month.  Back to my thought train...we learned some very interesting things.  Did you know that their are 66 million caregivers in the United States.   That those 66 million caregivers provide $450 BILLION of services and time for our government and people without pay.  The average caregiver is 48 years old, 2/3 are female, and most provide at least 30 hours of care a week.  That care can be for a disabled parent/child/spouse/sibling, an elderly parent, or a non-disabled person.  A caregiver under the age of 28 who cares for someone with a disability is three times as likely to develop Type 2 Diabetes, heart disease, have a stroke, or die of a stress related illness.  Why...because most caregivers do not take care of their own health.  They do not go to the doctor when they should, which is regularly, they do not take time for themselves, and they just generally do not take care of their health.  It worries me.  For me.  And for all of my friends who are mothers.  And for all the women and men who are caring for sick spouses.  And the list goes on and on.  My husband is on me even more now to take care of myself....guess I should listen huh.

On another note...we did find a support group, or I should say support groups.  Other couples like us, where one has a form of MD and one doesn't.  Couples where there is a spouse who carries more of a burden because their spouse can't.  I don't feel quite so alone now.  I knew their were others like us, like me, out their, but to see them in real life was comforting.  And we got a new doctor too.  I am very excited about that because I honestly detested Chris's doctor.  I knew more about MD than she did.  And I knew she wrote the prescriptions wrong before we even left the parking garage.  I mean who rights a script for a dermal patch to be given inter-dermally...you cannot put a patch under the skin.  Doesn't work like that.  And I was very excited to here that the new doctor is well-known and has a FANTASTIC reputation in the MD world.  I am hoping for great things.

All in all....been a busy but profitable few months.  The year is not done yet so I am sure there is still many more interesting things to come.  Hopefully I will get better about updating my blog....Until then...take care of yourself or else you will not be able to take care of the ones you love.  Stay strong....and focused.